God Of My Understanding Now
Hi God. I am writing this to clear out the ‘spaces’ of outdated, unworkable, and misinformed beliefs I once held dear.
As I humbly evolve and grow, my understandings of You changes. Indeed, don’t we all? In the presence of Your Omniscience, I recognize and reserve the right to be ‘wrong’, ‘foolish’, or ‘silly’ in my new beliefs and understandings of You as well. We humans are a very young species.
You are pure and boundless Love…Life Itself…true Freedom. I see You better now…no fear, no need to beg and plead for mercies, for anything at all. Now I see.
You are no trickster of ‘supernatural theatrical displays’ for zealous ‘conversions’. You offer no promises of ‘countless’ progeny, great wealth and power dominance with old and new ‘investments’ made ‘holy’ by pledges of an endless alliance for allegiance in ‘vows’ and ‘contracts’ to ‘wage’ merciless and vicious wars, aggressions and possessions ‘justified’ and ‘sanctified’ as was done often globally in primitive times before.
You make no demands for animal or human sacrifices or ‘substitute sacrifices’ of external genitalia parts. You never have. You have no need for ‘sons’ to die, deadly symbolism and dramatization of Your ‘life-giving sun’ as ‘self-sacrifice’ acceptable, worthy, and sacred (sacrifice pure, innocent and virginal) to ‘pay the price’ for us to live in the heavens, for us to be counted ‘acceptable’ and ‘worthy’ vicariously. You have no need for our ‘worship’, our ‘sacrifices’, our ‘fear of You”. People just made that up long ago.
Your unconditional, perfect Love has no judgments, no ‘judgment days’, no ‘judgment trials’, no punishments for errant ways, no cruel condemnations, no artificial and changing laws for ‘sins’.
You have created no ‘puppeted’ or ‘dictated’ destinies of people or nations, no ‘staged historical events’. We’ve done all that secretly in Your Names.
Your all-embracing, infinite Love has no special ‘elect’, no ‘chosen’ few, no ‘superior elites’ and their claimed ‘divine rights’ to protect. There are no ‘unbelievers’ to imprison or to kill (violating God-given free will) for You, Beloved, are Freedom Itself and we are of the same ‘essence’.
There are no ‘eternal hells’ of Divine threats and vindictiveness, no ‘annihilations’ of our being, no ‘heavenly harems’, no ‘hypnotizing harps’, no ‘trumpets of doom’, no ‘pearly gates’ opened or closed, no ‘streets’ of ethereal ‘gold’ to walk, no ‘religious competitions’ with ‘winner’ and ‘loser’ races, no ‘winner races’ or ‘loser races’, no ‘tithing tickets’ and bequeathed money to ‘buy favour’ and ‘entry’ to Your Heaven’ of Divine Love, Your ‘Paradise’ of Peace and Plenty, Your ‘Court’ of submissive supplicants, Your ‘Kingdom’ of Power and Privilege. We have made You in our filtered perceptions and fearful imaginings. We have made You in our images, idols, systems and structures changing ever so slowly as we go on.
How did all these ancient ‘Stories’, ‘Symbols’, and ‘Traditions’ start? In Your Names we have created so much misery on this little planet because of our immature understandings. In Your Freedom and Higher Awareness we can question it all. We can question the messages, beliefs, and actions of ‘angels’, ‘messengers’, ‘prophets’, and global ‘gods’ of our distant past. We can seek to understand the whys (Why?) and the hows (How?) this nightmarish madness of continuous conflict and suffering all began. Then we can move forward gratefully and graciously into a wiser Tomorrow. We are a young species with so much wondrous potential.
(Shelley A. Wilson- March 15, 2019)