I walk in Clouds

who laugh and weep

their sorrows and joys

as loving Sunrays

and caring Moonbeams

dance the short days

round and round…

I walk in Showers

of Raindrops and Snowflakes

who whisper secrets

as they gently fall-

in Blizzards that blind

and freeze with indifference-

in fierce Storms that shout

with violent fury…

Water holds Memory,

blessings and curses,

clarity and pollution…

In countless lives

Water is Aware-

Aware of us in us as us

and so much more…

In Tides and Currents and Flows,

Water moves in Bodies

great and small-

rises unseen and descends

with powers to transform

all that is immersed

in what it has become…

I walk in Rains

immersed in Water

within and beyond my skin

that once bordered Awareness,

grown borderless now

as Torrents and Floods

sweep away boundaries

and Human definitions…

I walk in Mists

of vaporous thoughts

infused with emotions-

in wildly thunderous or

blissfully calm billows

of ever-changing Clouds

now here, now gone

as am I…

Water watches all

on little Planet Earth-

watches Landscapes

shift and change,

Water and Land

advancing, receding

over and over again…

Water watches

the dramas of Evolution,

slow cycles and lightning leaps,

as Flora and Fauna disappear-

watches Humans

appear and disappear

like Streams above and under ground…

Water watches, watches and awaits

another Great Earth Age-

an Age of Un-Named Forms…

March 18, 2013- February 11, 2020

February 24, 2023

Shelley Audrey Wilson

Victoria, BC


Reaching In Reaching Out

Reaching In Reaching Out

We grow from Infancy

enlarging, expanding

our perceptions,

our experiences,

our knowing,

reaching in reaching out

of our Cradle, our Home,

our World, our Universe,

our great Unknown…

Once we seemed

the very Center

of all Creation

by One or More Beings,

Powerful Caring Giants

focused on nurturing,

providing for all

our Human Infant needs

or not…

Slowly we outgrew

our Cradle, our Home,

our World, our Universe

reaching in reaching out,

enlarging, expanding

our perceptions,

our experiences,

our knowing at last

we Live On The Edge…

Then we began to wonder,

Is this the only

Earth-like World

or are there Many?

Is this the only

Inhabitable World

for forms of Life

unlike our own,

different Evolutions,

perceptions, experiences

unlike our own?

Is this Universe

the only Evolving Creation

by a Divine Being-Beings,

a Divine Energy-Energies,

a Divine Force-Forces,

a Divine Process-Processes,

Quantum and Cosmic,

or not…

Is this the only

Universe of Galaxies

or are there Many,

Many Universes,

Multiverses Seen Unseen

with Many Big Bangs?

Is this the only

Conscious Universe,

the only Seen Unseen

Intelligent Creation

creating, evolving,

perceiving, experiencing,

knowing Itself

even through All That Is,

even through the Many

Infant Creators, us?

Are we all Part Of

a Conscious Multiverse

reaching in reaching out…


February 3, 2023

Shelley Audrey Wilson

Victoria, BC

I Once Believed

I Once Believed

I once believed in a God of Contradictions, a Parent Almighty, a Loving Creator God of Unlimited Power who was Powerless to Make Humans Obey, especially Women, a God who Needed the Help of Men to Fight Ancient and Modern Wars, to Obey and Kill on Command, Obedient to Commandments and Punishing Laws, a God of Wrath.

I once believed in a God of Sacrifice, a Death Dealing God who Required us to Demonstrate Obedience through our Self Sacrifice and the Sacrifice of our Loved Ones, especially the Innocents, the Child, the Children of God, Sons and Daughters of Man, the countless Sacrifices of Harmless Animals to a Primitive God still worshipped by many.

I once believed in a God of Rewards and Punishments, Rewards of Heaven, of Paradise, for Blind Faith and Blind Obedience, for the Right Genes, the Right Religion, the Chosen, the Elect, the Superior Few- a God of Jealousy, Vengeance and Cruelty to All Others- the Unbelievers, the Infidels, the Heretics, People of the Wrong Religion or Race or Politics, the Wrong History and Geography, the Wrong Beliefs, a Very Exclusive and Elitist God.

I once believed in a God who used Angels (those Humans and Extraterrestrials) with powerful Weapons to Destroy whole Cities, even the Children too- Innocent Infants, Toddlers and Teens, Children of Men and Women in the Wrong Place at the Wrong Time (Collateral Damage), Justified Death, Horrific Killing for Power and Control of Earth. Was it they who told us about the Horrors of Hells? I wonder.

I once believed in a God of Retribution, a God of Karma Making us, Forcing us, to Return Again and Again until we Got It Right, until we Outgrew our Unacceptable Behaviours, our Sins born of Ignorance that Mother of Evils, until we finally Saw the Light in our Meditations and Prayers or through our Devotions, Adorations and Rituals Considered Needed to Get It Right, Enlightened At Last.

I walk in the Wonder of Life Itself Letting Go of anything Less than Pure Love and True Freedom, those Other Names for God…

January 19, 2023

Shelley Audrey Wilson

Victoria, BC



Earth transforms now and then

dramatically or little by little

when land masses slip and slide.

We’re just along for the ride.

We’re each here for a little while

as individuals and as species too.

Sometimes we even return

and continue our Great Adventures

evolving fast or slow as we do,

Star-Seeded again by Life

both here and by Life beyond

our Planet, Alien Interventions,

some of which we fear

as hostile or even divinely benign.

We’re all just passing through

this realm of joy and pain,

Souls on a Great Adventure,

Life’s experience to gain.

Some seek comforts in safe havens,

others seek danger to feel alive.

Some feast on their desires,

others struggle to survive.

Divine Creations, we evolve

by thought and deed and consequence,

paths well worn or those less travelled.

Attitude rules Circumstance.

Some are challenged by misfortune,

loss of all that’s valued here,

stripped of everything but Spirit,

Love expressed in those held dear.

We weep our own and others’ losses,

seeking answers as we pray.

None can judge the Soul’s Agenda

as we journey on our way.

We’re all just passing through.

A Unity Diverse…

We’re Life in many forms

throughout the Universe.

Here for a little while,

we travel in and out of Time

exploring Life Itself,

the mundane and sublime.

Our Lives are wondrous Journeys.

We challenge ourselves to grow,

exploring all conditions

through which we come and go.

Nothing here is forever.

We must leave it all behind.

Back to Source All Beings go,

beyond the limits of Mind-

beyond boundaries of Soul-

back to the Great Oneness we go,

that Oneness we call Heaven-

the God-Light and our True Home.

From and to Home we come and go

playing out our Great Adventures,

transforming Life as we know it,

creating realities loving or fearful

in multiple Timelines and Roles

or making another Free Will Choice-

Not Going Out and Staying Home.

January 13, 2023 Victoria BC

Note: I inserted my poem titled ‘All Just Passing Through’ and ‘Just Passing’ first written on May 14, 2008 then revised October 26, 2018, May 24, 2021, October 6, 2021 and now included in ‘Transformations’ January 13, 2023 with further revisions and transformations perhaps)

Shelley Audrey Wilson

(a.k.a. Shell, Shelley Demers (by marriage)

a.k.a. Ariel and Ariel-Shelley (as in Percy Bysshe Shelley)

a.k.a. Pumpkin (Dad’s) and Sheillelagh (Mom’s) nicknames)



It’s amazing to me

how Humans and E.T.s

create new visions

and new versions

and endless repeats

of states or places

we deem as ‘Hell’.

It’s amazing to me

how Humans and E.T.s

create and send

those we deem

as our Enemies

to places and situations

we all can see

made real as ‘Hell’.

I love the old story

buried in Scriptures

where before Jesus

ascended to Heaven

he ‘released the prisoners’

and so cleaned up

and cleared out ‘Hell’.

From that story I see

how Compassion

demonstrates Mastery,

most especially

to those called ‘Enemy’,

not creating and wishing

and sending them

to any version

we deem as ‘Hell’.

It’s amazing to me

how we Humans and E.T.s,

in physical forms or not,

still even judge ourselves

to experience ‘Hells’

through our beliefs

and misunderstandings

handed down through

earliest evolutions

and ideas about God.

May we release

those ‘prisoners’ too-

ourselves and others-

moving into Self-Mastery,

evolving our understandings,

cleaning up and clearing out

modern and primitive

visions and versions

of places and states

we’ve made real as ‘Hell’.

(January 5, 2023

Shelley Audrey Wilson

Victoria, BC)

Awake, Aware, Alive

Awake, Aware, Alive

(Friend or Foe, Dead or Alive

by our Definitions,

thanks for being here

as I journey through Galaxies,

Ethereal, Astral, Physical,

through Destinations and Destinies

appearing solid and daunting

on a Ship of Questions to Remember

what it means To Be Truly Free.)

Are we truly Awake, Aware, Alive

or are our days merely a dream,

a haze, a maze of perceived illusions,

mistaken assumptions, erroneous conclusions,

distortions and confusions

about Life, about God, about Us?

Are we truly Awake, Aware, Alive?

From Childhood on, are we fed

and educated by our systems,

our families and societies

in what may by some be called

our Local Prejudices and Propagandas-

Cultural, Political, Religious-

as Blinders and Binders

through which we view

Life and God and Us?

Are we truly Awake, Aware, Alive?

Do we really know how Life works,

how Interconnected, how Interdependent

everything is everywhere

in The Larger View, The Grander Vision-

of this Universe, the Earth and even

The Great Beyond- Life Beyond Death

connecting All, including you and me?

Do we see how we’re part

of this multilayered Universe

of particles, waves and densities,

consciousness and frequencies,

even this Earth, this World

of waters and lands, elements and animals,

trees and plants and All That Is?

Do we understand even now

how our Well Being is Interconnected,

Interdependent, part of the All

and as we do to This, we do

to ourselves as well?

Are we truly Awake, Aware, Alive?

How do we Awaken to Oneness?

How do we Live in Awareness?

How do we value Life and being Alive?

How do we state, demonstrate,

to the All who we each are?

Who do we choose to be?

In large or small measure,

what do we contribute to Life

whether selfish or selfless?

Who do we think we are?

Do we see Life as a Name for God,

Life Itself and Freedom too?

Do we see Life in Us as Us,

a Process, a Force, an Energy

constantly moving, changing,

sustaining, recreating ever

in every Here and Now?

Do we see Life Itself Present,

Alive in Us, as Us, as All

even when some are not truly Sentient-

Awake, Aware, Alive?

I seek out New Definitions.

I leave Lesser Truths behind.

(So here I am enjoying the journey

on a ship of Questions flying

Beyond my past understandings

of Life As It Is into Mystery

and what it means To Be Truly Free.

Thanks One and All for joining me!)

January 2, 2023

Shelley Audrey Wilson

Victoria, BC

This Ochre Ribbon

This Ochre Ribbon

A mystery to me-

how did this ochre ribbon

come to rest upon my bed

when the sight on a site

of an ochre-robed monk

awakened memories

that lay sleeping peacefully

in my humble heart and head?

Where did it come from,

this ribbon tied at both ends

with ‘tales’ both short and long?

Long ago and far away,

we sat in reverent silence,

my ochre-robed Brothers and me,

our lives peaceful and serene,

disciplined, joyful simply to be

aware in the oneness of Life,

alive in the Light flowing free.

I recall the quiet contemplations,

the mystical prayers, the vibrations

of chants, the silent meditations.

This Now Version of me,

an old woman, a more worldly life,

still goes within now and then

but far less than when

I wore those ochre robes.

What have I learned/remembered

this Now Time around?

I am no victim ever

of this or any destiny.

I create and co-create it all-

every rise and fall and rise again…

I use the Wheel of Life

to Experience, to Evolve as I Revolve.

I choose it all, Ever Free

to stay Being in Perfect Oneness

or Forget my Self, then

venture forth and journey

through Wonders, Worlds, Adventures

Becoming even as this humble Human,

this Now Version, me

now holding this ochre ribbon,

a memory and mystery.

December 21, 2022

Shelley Audrey Wilson

Victoria BC



Faith is Hope with starlit wings.

Faith carries Courage above

stormy waters of events,

circumstances, forces

that push us hard and pull us down.

Faith lifts us high in troubled times

from Worldly cares to Heavenly realms

of understandings beautiful and sublime.

Here Higher Powers appear in glory

of awesome Wonders, enlightening,

communicating the power of words

to calm, with comforting assurance,

any fears in hearts and minds.

Here Peace is crowned and Joy is found

a Heavenly Treasure beyond all measure.

Here is where Love abounds

as Love unbounded,

not bound to limitations,

fully free in every way.

When Faith rests on things untrue,

on tangled webs of lies, held tight

in dark deceptions, conspiring agendas

linked and bound by chains of silence

holding down what’s truly true

then Faith falls through such ground

of decayed, unsound foundations,

Faith’s Trust is broken, illusions shattered,

though Faith may yet still cling to these.

Faith deceived has no Freedom,

disempowers us through Fear,

creates confusions, distorts perceptions,

warps world views, spins false news,

enslaves and carries us away

from Love as God’s True Light

to guide our lives in many ways.

Faith corrupted steals and slanders,

torments, tortures, exiles, kills,

becomes the Opposite to Love

while justifying Deadly Games

of Destruction in God’s Names.

May our Faith be ever free

to grow and change, evolve,

to lift us ever higher

to higher truths and wisdoms,

to help us see ever more clearly

Life, our lives, our planet World

and what is truly true.

December 7, 2022- Shelley Audrey Wilson-

Victoria BC

A Young Species

We are a young Species.

Like young Children,

we grow in greater Awareness

of other Beings, other Humans

and strange-looking Creatures

sentient or not,

evolving fast or slow,

loving, friendly,

fearful, hostile,

appearing strange in many ways.

Like young Children,

we grow in greater Awareness

of where we live,

of Other Rooms and Spaces

Beyond the first we knew.

Some of us reach out

to touch the heavens,

eager to explore and know

The Wonders waiting Beyond

Closed Doors and Curtained Windows,

Beyond what we now see.

Some of us go deep within us

to know where our life began,

to know again The Womb of Heaven,

know again The Oneness

and The Wonder of It All.

Like young Children,

we grow in greater Awareness,

we Make Believe and Make It So

creating and co-creating

a myriad Dreams as Realities

Playing Out as we grow.

Beings of Older Ages, Other Places, watch

and sometimes even guide us

as we Play, Evolve and Grow.

December 4, 2022- Shelley Audrey Wilson

Victoria, BC

Tolerance and Acceptance

Tolerance and Acceptance

This may be

your only birth

on this little planet

we call Earth.

Perhaps you

were never born here

in this wondrous World

ever once before

but I have

and will again

even many times more.

Among the stars

I’ve also lived

in other strange forms

knowing Peace and Wars.

You may see

this vast Universe

as far outside of you

but I can clearly see

it is within us too.

You may think

we were born in sin

but I do see

God’s holy Presence

the Life of our life,

as ever and always within.

You can’t prove

and I can’t prove

Beliefs we hold

from things we’re told

or of our own

Remembrances and


May we leash

our loyal dogmas

and choose a wiser way,

growing day by day

in Tolerance and


November 30, 2022

Shelley Audrey Wilson

Victoria, BC

Another Perspective

How easily we believe what we’re told through gossip, the modern Media and the Scriptural News of old slanted to steer behaviours through trained perspectives, beliefs and World Views. Even our questions are coloured lines, patterned attitudes and contained beliefs- those old ‘boxes’ in which we see Life and from within which we create our collective and individual experiences. When we choose to step out of one such box created in a distant past, we often jump into another. Out of the box, we become a threat to the ‘status quo’ as heretics, unbelievers, doubters, exiles and outcasts.

I am reminded of Hagar, the ancient bondwoman of Sarah, wife of Abraham- a tribal chieftain who entertained the ‘men of God’ with food and drink and who agreed to a pact, a contract to fight in their wars in return for great promises. The identities of these men who ate, drank and threw bones to predict and tell fortunes have been translated now as ‘messengers of God’ and as ‘angels’ and as ‘God’. I am guessing that they were actually part of some ancient religious order with ties to extraterrestrials fighting for control of Earth. Just a guess, of course. I could be wrong.

Hagar is portrayed as a jealous servant who deserved to be cast out of the camp with her child to die in the desert when Sarah had given birth to her own son. He was to be the ‘rightful heir’ to promises of power, riches and many offspring with the help of these ‘angels of God’, ‘messengers’, ‘men of God’. The Scriptures ‘testify’ to this ‘contract’ of promises in return for warriors.

Seen from another perspective, Hagar was an Egyptian ‘bond-gift’ given to serve Sarah, the beautiful woman desired and favoured by the Pharaoh of that time. Hagar was forced to serve Sarah, attend to her needs like combing her hair- a personal attendant much like later ‘ladies of the court’. Hagar was forced to have sex with Sarah’s husband, believing false promises, in order to produce a surrogate child for Sarah by her command. Then, when Sarah, herself, was ‘miraculously’ inseminated, suddenly fertile, giving birth to her own child, both Hagar and her offspring became a threat to Sarah and her son. An excuse to be rid of them was easily created. Such circumstances with intrigues have been repeated in places of power throughout history.

Hagar was made into a symbol of powerless bondage and slavery while Sarah became a symbol of freedom, grace and God’s favour- all to justify and sanctify struggle for power ‘rightly won’.The consequences of these ancient actions have spread ripple effects through time even to this day.

From Sarah’s perspective, she did what was ‘right and just’ for herself and her son. Hagar was in bondage and had no rights, especially the right to glorified power, so Hagar was ‘in the wrong’ to assume power for her son despite false promises made to her by Abraham and Sarah herself. I am guessing that it did not ever occur to Sarah that bondage and slavery itself was ‘wrong’ and spiritually unjustifiable. The primitive culture of her time and of primitive cultures before her had accepted and lived in those ‘boxes of belief’ that bondage and slavery were acceptable, right, just,and the ‘will of their God’ as told by ‘men of God’. She’d believe this without question.

It’s amazing how men and women of intelligence fail to question the ‘status quo’’ even today. It’s also amazing how men and women of intelligence fail to see the ample contradictory evidence of a capricious God of Love and Condemnation, Love and Damnation, of Loving and Hating, of Comforting Grace and Angry Revenge, of Ultimate Power and Complete Powerlessness except through Fear and Need for Sacrifice- both animals and human life. Such versions and visions of the Creator, God, were brought to us by ‘men of God’ in many ancient cultures. How great the needless suffering has been because of this!

We must rise out of our ‘boxes of beliefs’ to a higher perspective, like a higher view seen of the Earth, a higher World View, and come to realize that we are all one, a unity of Life expressing diversity. Then we shall see God everywhere through new eyes, new ‘I’s’, as a more highly evolved Humanity. The assumption here is that we don’t destroy ourselves and our precious home planet first.

November 13, 2022

Shelley Audrey Wilson

Victoria, BC

Healthy Growth


Healthy Growth

Deciding to make a difference

Reshaping the ‘status quo’

Creating good will as defence

With compassion for a foe

Seeing the suffering of violence

Choosing ways to let it go

Caring without pretense

Living the wisdom we know

Each one making a difference

Thriving through what we sow

Of kindness as common sense

Helping each other grow.

May 14, 2022

Shelley Wilson

To Be Or Not

To Be Or Not

Everything is the meaning

we give to it-

Shapes and Colours,

Symbols and Signs

created with Intention

or not- when

things and events

are just what they are-

a Design is just a Design,

a Poem is just what it says,

neither framed by others’

interpretations or


simply, delightfully free

in how they’ve been chosen

to be present in this World.

Shapes and Colours,

Symbols and Signs

created with Intention

and Layered Meanings

have only the power

we choose to give them.-

They have no power

other than what

we choose to give

in the lives we live.

Even Alphabets

of Shapes called Letters

have only the power

of Creation or Destruction

that we choose to give.

‘To Be or Not To Be’…

Our World and

Our Humanity…

Our chosen Flags

of Shapes and Colours

can define Identity,

can define as Sign-

a Unity or Not,

can be used

as Tools of Creation

or Destruction…

To Be our Human Destiny

Evolving here or Not…

a World of Good Will to All

or Not… a World of Ill…

That power is not in Symbols.

That power is in us

To Be or Not To Be…

each one, all one…

each one all one,

we choose our Destiny…

The meaning of everything

is what we give it-

imagined truths,

observed truths,

factual truths,

distorted realities,

actual realities,

ultimate realities…

We come to Experience

it all on our Journeys

to Self-Mastery

as we Evolve

our Consciousness

rising higher

through it all

here onEarth

or Not here at all.

March 9, 2022

Shelley Wilson

Writing To My Future Self

Sunlight Through Raindrops:

Writing To My Future Self

I am writing to my Future Self-

another time, another place,

another name, another race,

another shape, another face,

another version of Real Me…

Make Love and Compassion

your Constant Companions

in all your Earthly days

with those you’ve ever known

and even those unknown.

You’ll never truly be alone.

You’ll never feel alone.

When Change Appears as Monster Fears

feeding on Calamity, Catastrophe,

Conflict, Confusion, Disaster,

Danger, Destruction and Loss,

no matter what else you do-

remember the Love inside of you,

the Compassion and Love

all around you too.

That Love will see you through-

and you may come to find,

given time, the Blessings in Disguise.

Give Thanks and show your Gratitude.

That Attitude will help you live

in Inner Peace, Resilient Joy and Care

through anything that comes your way.

You will not feel Despair.

Life here is Constant Change.

Embrace it without Fear

of what may or may not Appear.

Accept what you can’t Change

so you can Let Discordance Go

with Past Regrets, with Ifs and Buts,

so you can Grow in the Flow

of how You Now Choose to Change.

You know the purpose of your Soul-

your own Evolving Self- Mastery Aware.

Despite Appearing Circumstance,

you’ll know you’re in control.

You are Spirit and Life’s Beloved Soul.

Remember your Real Me…

February 24, 2022- Shelley Wilson