Crazy and Unbelievable
Crazy and Unbelievable
Religion and Spirituality
I Once Believed
I Once Believed
I once believed in a God of Contradictions, a Parent Almighty, a Loving Creator God of Unlimited Power who was Powerless to Make Humans Obey, especially Women, a God who Needed the Help of Men to Fight Ancient and Modern Wars, to Obey and Kill on Command, Obedient to Commandments and Punishing Laws, a God of Wrath.
I once believed in a God of Sacrifice, a Death Dealing God who Required us to Demonstrate Obedience through our Self Sacrifice and the Sacrifice of our Loved Ones, especially the Innocents, the Child, the Children of God, Sons and Daughters of Man, the countless Sacrifices of Harmless Animals to a Primitive God still worshipped by many.
I once believed in a God of Rewards and Punishments, Rewards of Heaven, of Paradise, for Blind Faith and Blind Obedience, for the Right Genes, the Right Religion, the Chosen, the Elect, the Superior Few- a God of Jealousy, Vengeance and Cruelty to All Others- the Unbelievers, the Infidels, the Heretics, People of the Wrong Religion or Race or Politics, the Wrong History and Geography, the Wrong Beliefs, a Very Exclusive and Elitist God.
I once believed in a God who used Angels (those Humans and Extraterrestrials) with powerful Weapons to Destroy whole Cities, even the Children too- Innocent Infants, Toddlers and Teens, Children of Men and Women in the Wrong Place at the Wrong Time (Collateral Damage), Justified Death, Horrific Killing for Power and Control of Earth. Was it they who told us about the Horrors of Hells? I wonder.
I once believed in a God of Retribution, a God of Karma Making us, Forcing us, to Return Again and Again until we Got It Right, until we Outgrew our Unacceptable Behaviours, our Sins born of Ignorance that Mother of Evils, until we finally Saw the Light in our Meditations and Prayers or through our Devotions, Adorations and Rituals Considered Needed to Get It Right, Enlightened At Last.
I walk in the Wonder of Life Itself Letting Go of anything Less than Pure Love and True Freedom, those Other Names for God…
January 19, 2023
Shelley Audrey Wilson
Victoria, BC
This Ochre Ribbon
This Ochre Ribbon
A mystery to me-
how did this ochre ribbon
come to rest upon my bed
when the sight on a site
of an ochre-robed monk
awakened memories
that lay sleeping peacefully
in my humble heart and head?
Where did it come from,
this ribbon tied at both ends
with ‘tales’ both short and long?
Long ago and far away,
we sat in reverent silence,
my ochre-robed Brothers and me,
our lives peaceful and serene,
disciplined, joyful simply to be
aware in the oneness of Life,
alive in the Light flowing free.
I recall the quiet contemplations,
the mystical prayers, the vibrations
of chants, the silent meditations.
This Now Version of me,
an old woman, a more worldly life,
still goes within now and then
but far less than when
I wore those ochre robes.
What have I learned/remembered
this Now Time around?
I am no victim ever
of this or any destiny.
I create and co-create it all-
every rise and fall and rise again…
I use the Wheel of Life
to Experience, to Evolve as I Revolve.
I choose it all, Ever Free
to stay Being in Perfect Oneness
or Forget my Self, then
venture forth and journey
through Wonders, Worlds, Adventures
Becoming even as this humble Human,
this Now Version, me
now holding this ochre ribbon,
a memory and mystery.
December 21, 2022
Shelley Audrey Wilson
Victoria BC
Faith
Faith
Faith is Hope with starlit wings.
Faith carries Courage above
stormy waters of events,
circumstances, forces
that push us hard and pull us down.
Faith lifts us high in troubled times
from Worldly cares to Heavenly realms
of understandings beautiful and sublime.
Here Higher Powers appear in glory
of awesome Wonders, enlightening,
communicating the power of words
to calm, with comforting assurance,
any fears in hearts and minds.
Here Peace is crowned and Joy is found
a Heavenly Treasure beyond all measure.
Here is where Love abounds
as Love unbounded,
not bound to limitations,
fully free in every way.
When Faith rests on things untrue,
on tangled webs of lies, held tight
in dark deceptions, conspiring agendas
linked and bound by chains of silence
holding down what’s truly true
then Faith falls through such ground
of decayed, unsound foundations,
Faith’s Trust is broken, illusions shattered,
though Faith may yet still cling to these.
Faith deceived has no Freedom,
disempowers us through Fear,
creates confusions, distorts perceptions,
warps world views, spins false news,
enslaves and carries us away
from Love as God’s True Light
to guide our lives in many ways.
Faith corrupted steals and slanders,
torments, tortures, exiles, kills,
becomes the Opposite to Love
while justifying Deadly Games
of Destruction in God’s Names.
May our Faith be ever free
to grow and change, evolve,
to lift us ever higher
to higher truths and wisdoms,
to help us see ever more clearly
Life, our lives, our planet World
and what is truly true.
December 7, 2022- Shelley Audrey Wilson-
Victoria BC
Tolerance and Acceptance
Tolerance and Acceptance
This may be
your only birth
on this little planet
we call Earth.
Perhaps you
were never born here
in this wondrous World
ever once before
but I have
and will again
even many times more.
Among the stars
I’ve also lived
in other strange forms
knowing Peace and Wars.
You may see
this vast Universe
as far outside of you
but I can clearly see
it is within us too.
You may think
we were born in sin
but I do see
God’s holy Presence
the Life of our life,
as ever and always within.
You can’t prove
and I can’t prove
Beliefs we hold
from things we’re told
or of our own
Remembrances and
Perceptions.
May we leash
our loyal dogmas
and choose a wiser way,
growing day by day
in Tolerance and
Acceptance.
November 30, 2022
Shelley Audrey Wilson
Victoria, BC
Another Perspective
How easily we believe what we’re told through gossip, the modern Media and the Scriptural News of old slanted to steer behaviours through trained perspectives, beliefs and World Views. Even our questions are coloured lines, patterned attitudes and contained beliefs- those old ‘boxes’ in which we see Life and from within which we create our collective and individual experiences. When we choose to step out of one such box created in a distant past, we often jump into another. Out of the box, we become a threat to the ‘status quo’ as heretics, unbelievers, doubters, exiles and outcasts.
I am reminded of Hagar, the ancient bondwoman of Sarah, wife of Abraham- a tribal chieftain who entertained the ‘men of God’ with food and drink and who agreed to a pact, a contract to fight in their wars in return for great promises. The identities of these men who ate, drank and threw bones to predict and tell fortunes have been translated now as ‘messengers of God’ and as ‘angels’ and as ‘God’. I am guessing that they were actually part of some ancient religious order with ties to extraterrestrials fighting for control of Earth. Just a guess, of course. I could be wrong.
Hagar is portrayed as a jealous servant who deserved to be cast out of the camp with her child to die in the desert when Sarah had given birth to her own son. He was to be the ‘rightful heir’ to promises of power, riches and many offspring with the help of these ‘angels of God’, ‘messengers’, ‘men of God’. The Scriptures ‘testify’ to this ‘contract’ of promises in return for warriors.
Seen from another perspective, Hagar was an Egyptian ‘bond-gift’ given to serve Sarah, the beautiful woman desired and favoured by the Pharaoh of that time. Hagar was forced to serve Sarah, attend to her needs like combing her hair- a personal attendant much like later ‘ladies of the court’. Hagar was forced to have sex with Sarah’s husband, believing false promises, in order to produce a surrogate child for Sarah by her command. Then, when Sarah, herself, was ‘miraculously’ inseminated, suddenly fertile, giving birth to her own child, both Hagar and her offspring became a threat to Sarah and her son. An excuse to be rid of them was easily created. Such circumstances with intrigues have been repeated in places of power throughout history.
Hagar was made into a symbol of powerless bondage and slavery while Sarah became a symbol of freedom, grace and God’s favour- all to justify and sanctify struggle for power ‘rightly won’.The consequences of these ancient actions have spread ripple effects through time even to this day.
From Sarah’s perspective, she did what was ‘right and just’ for herself and her son. Hagar was in bondage and had no rights, especially the right to glorified power, so Hagar was ‘in the wrong’ to assume power for her son despite false promises made to her by Abraham and Sarah herself. I am guessing that it did not ever occur to Sarah that bondage and slavery itself was ‘wrong’ and spiritually unjustifiable. The primitive culture of her time and of primitive cultures before her had accepted and lived in those ‘boxes of belief’ that bondage and slavery were acceptable, right, just,and the ‘will of their God’ as told by ‘men of God’. She’d believe this without question.
It’s amazing how men and women of intelligence fail to question the ‘status quo’’ even today. It’s also amazing how men and women of intelligence fail to see the ample contradictory evidence of a capricious God of Love and Condemnation, Love and Damnation, of Loving and Hating, of Comforting Grace and Angry Revenge, of Ultimate Power and Complete Powerlessness except through Fear and Need for Sacrifice- both animals and human life. Such versions and visions of the Creator, God, were brought to us by ‘men of God’ in many ancient cultures. How great the needless suffering has been because of this!
We must rise out of our ‘boxes of beliefs’ to a higher perspective, like a higher view seen of the Earth, a higher World View, and come to realize that we are all one, a unity of Life expressing diversity. Then we shall see God everywhere through new eyes, new ‘I’s’, as a more highly evolved Humanity. The assumption here is that we don’t destroy ourselves and our precious home planet first.
November 13, 2022
Shelley Audrey Wilson
Victoria, BC
Oppression
Oppression
When Space ‘Angels’ brought Religions
to the species ‘Man’,
Oppression’s Feast of Fear actually began
through all the Binding Rules and Laws
of Must and Can’t or Can,
especially for the Gender birthing every Man.
Oppression feeds on Fear
throughout the World’s Ages
with so many bold Claims
to speak in God’s Names.
Oppression holds Power in so many ways
from false assumptions
and False appearing True.
God save us from your Followers,
especially the zealous-
those slaves from birth to death,
unquestioning, obedient
slaves to such Oppression
claiming Right of God
to persecute and kill.
God help us to Be Free at last,
Free at last!
September 23, 2022
Shelley Wilson
Writing To My Future Self
Sunlight Through Raindrops:
Writing To My Future Self
I am writing to my Future Self-
another time, another place,
another name, another race,
another shape, another face,
another version of Real Me…
Make Love and Compassion
your Constant Companions
in all your Earthly days
with those you’ve ever known
and even those unknown.
You’ll never truly be alone.
You’ll never feel alone.
When Change Appears as Monster Fears
feeding on Calamity, Catastrophe,
Conflict, Confusion, Disaster,
Danger, Destruction and Loss,
no matter what else you do-
remember the Love inside of you,
the Compassion and Love
all around you too.
That Love will see you through-
and you may come to find,
given time, the Blessings in Disguise.
Give Thanks and show your Gratitude.
That Attitude will help you live
in Inner Peace, Resilient Joy and Care
through anything that comes your way.
You will not feel Despair.
Life here is Constant Change.
Embrace it without Fear
of what may or may not Appear.
Accept what you can’t Change
so you can Let Discordance Go
with Past Regrets, with Ifs and Buts,
so you can Grow in the Flow
of how You Now Choose to Change.
You know the purpose of your Soul-
your own Evolving Self- Mastery Aware.
Despite Appearing Circumstance,
you’ll know you’re in control.
You are Spirit and Life’s Beloved Soul.
Remember your Real Me…
February 24, 2022- Shelley Wilson
You Can Tell
Flowers For Children:
You Can Tell
What makes a Happy Child
or Person in Old Age?
Is it a Heart of Hate?
Is it a Mind of Rage?
Is it a Heart at Peace?
Is it a Mind at Ease?
What makes a Happy Child
or Person in Old Age?
What makes you feel Bad?
What makes you feel Glad?
What makes you feel Ill?
What makes you feel Well?
It’s so easy to tell. You can tell.
Your Heart and Mind will tell.
How does Shouting make you feel?
How does Quiet make you feel?
When you drink Clean or Dirty Water,
how does your Body feel?
When you breathe Clean or Dirty Air,
how does your Body feel?
When Others want to Hurt you,
how does your Body feel?
Your Heart and Mind will tell
when Others mean Ill or Well.
All Animals can tell
and you can tell, you can tell.
February 22, 2022
Shelley Wilson
Be Your Own Sunshine
Flowers For Children:
Be Your Own Sunshine
You can be
your own Sunshine
on a rainy day.
You can be
your own Hero
come to save
you from dismay.
Bad and Mad
may try to hide
your Happy Sunshine,
to take your Joy away,
but you have
Secret Powers
to Light your way
both Night and Day.
Monster Fears
may try to scare you
but come what may,
your Light is strong,
as Love of Life
can win the Day.
Storms and Troubles
may circle ‘round you
to rob your Light,
your Peace and Joy,
your Right to be
your Happy Self
but you still shine
your Inner Wealth.
Shine your Light, Child,
ever brighter.
Shine on and on…
your Light is strong.
February 21, 2022
Shelley Wilson
World View
World View
We’ve evolved to understand
the State of our World View-
that how wee see the World
is what we think and say and do.
Familiar Comforts of Traditions
in Cultures and Religions too,
passed on through Generations,
hold or bind us to our Past
Inspiring or even Oppressing
until we’re ‘Free At Last’.
What do we Welcome or Oppose?
What do we Embrace or Refuse?
How do we engage others-
especially those Different?
Is our Choice the Good Will Voice
of Tolerance and Acceptance
or is it Defence and Offence?
Is it Debate or Argument?
Debate can be a way
for us to Decide and Choose
what is still or now true for us,
whether ‘win’ or ‘lose’,
depending on our World Views.
Different perspectives,
even opposing viewpoints
in respectful discussions
can persuade and sway
with healthy conversations,
minds and hearts at work and play.
Rational Reason and Healthy Emotion
then align to have their say.
Arguments with fair Solutions
can vent and clear the air,
changing conditions and situations
among those who truly care
but often Hostility leads to Futility
creating Misery everywhere.
What we think and say and do
all depends on our World View
inherited through Generations,
Cultural and Religious Traditions,
Mass Entertainments and Educations,
all contributing to our World View.
January 15, 2022- Shelley Wilson
Just An Old Woman
Sunlight Through Raindrops:
Just An Old Woman:
I’m just an old Woman, a Mother
low on the Social Pyramid of Man,
writing and doing the best that I can.
In any formal Religion, I don’t fit in
especially those who claim we’re born in sin
or need their Exclusive Membership for
Their Version of Heaven and God they adore.
I love and honour all that’s Sacred and Good
intended by their Founders and understood.
I honour the Spiritual Masters of fame-
Krishna then Buddha, Moses then Mohammed,
Jesus then Baha’u’llah, Babaji then Yogananda
and so many more- Male and Female-
Masters of every colour and Race
in every Time and in every Place.
I honour Masters and Initiates whose names
are now hidden in the Mists of Time
since the birth of Humanity on this Earth.
I love their Spirit with all my heart,
that Love of God never separate, apart,
from Life Itself within us all-
even just an old Woman, a Mother
low on the Social Pyramid of Man,
writing and doing the best that I can.
November 28, 2021- Shelley Wilson
I Thank God
Sunlight Through Raindrops:
I Thank God:
I thank God
the Age of Kali Yuga is long passed
though some would wish to bring it back
in primitive brutalities and ignorant confusions
enslaving Humanity to Misunderstandings
about God, about Life, about Everything.
The Age of Kali Yuga is long over-
the Electricities and Magnetism now known.
Today’s Technologies are not of Kali’s Realm.
Globally, Intelligence now rises
despite all attempts to suppress,
despite Black Magic desperately clinging-
Psychological Warfare, Weather Warfare,
Science Experiments without Conscience,
corrupt Politics with Compassionless Laws,
Global Industries without Integrity,
News and Entertainments intended
to prejudice and dull Minds,
Confused Educations of a Confused Past
where Wars of Religions without Love
Caused Countless Sufferings and Deaths-
Hid Truths and Histories, the Facts
about Earth’s and Humanity’s Past
in Power Plays and War Games
throughout their Militant, Corrupted Past.
Intelligence now rises. Hidden truths become revealed.
We start to see through that World of Lies.
Intelligence gains strength in direct knowing-
a growing global momentum…
The Dead who cling will see God’s Light.
Then come Cultures of Compassion,
a Federation strong in Life’s Light,
Everything seen more clearly as we evolve,
understanding God and Life more clearly,
Wisdom profiting our Insight.
(November 26, 2021- Shelley Wilson)
Spiritual Amnesia Photos
These two photos go with my last post called Spiritual Amnesia.
All best wishes, Shelley
Owl Tales and Photos
A Note To My Previous Post: Owl Tales
‘Owl’ tell you something else.
Pharaoh/Queen Hatshepsut was part Nubian.
Despite all attempts to erase her name and memory, much of her constructions, relics and artifacts- like her jewellery, still exist (made by her jewellers, though claimed to be that of following rulers, a common practice of inheritance and even grave-robbing by secret royal orders- or royals claiming greatness by falsely putting their name on more ancient structures like Pharaoh Kufu-Cheops- blatantly false claims to the Pyramids.) Even today, Hatshepsut’s love poems written to and with Solomon (called The Songs of Solomon) still exist, though confusingly interpreted now as ‘Holy Scripture’. Well, ‘everything is the meaning we give it’.
This Pharaoh/Queen Hatshepsut, chosen by her Father and fully Initiated, ruled Upper and Lower Egypt, Nubia, Ethiopia, a part of the Arabian Peninsula called Saba (Sheba)…and other Tribute Lands, trading extensively throughout the surrounding areas. She travelled to ‘Punt’, the Egyptian name for ‘the Holy Land, with exotic ‘gifts’- a ‘trade mission’- bringing her ‘entourage’ of highly skilled people, including Architects. Punt, ‘the Holy Land’, had also grown wealthy due to King Solomon’s ‘Wisdom’, his ‘Connections’, through several foreign marriages- alignments to foreign ruling families, and his Business Connections with Hiram of Tyre who owned a fleet of ships profitably transporting cargo between countries.
King Solomon was not as wealthy or powerful as Pharaoh/Queen Hatshepsut but was considered by her and her advisors as a suitable partner for a royal marriage, offspring and trade connections. All of this infuriated his powerful priests, his court and many others, as with the powerful families and priests- those power structures- of her lands. Yes, all of this became ‘translated’ into the supposed Anger of God in ‘the Holy Land’ and the Anger of the ‘Gods’ in Egypt. It became a mystery for scholars to ponder for centuries, for others to create myths or tamper with evidence and dates, and for tourist guides to repeat like gossip for a pay-check.
There’s ‘nothing new under the sun’ where Competing Powers are concerned, though most of us ‘don’t give a hoot’ unless we’re personally impacted. Many were, many still are…
Truly, we are a very young Species.
November 5, 2021
Shelley Wilson
Flowerpoet 
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